the begining is the end

i have to get back get to when it starts.
before it begin and before it couldnt stop.
i have to find you then tell you.
before i only could write it down and just spread it all arround.
i have to find you then tell you.
before it already stop and it already done.
I have to find you then tell that you are who i mean to.
that you are who i needed.
that you are who i wanted.
but it already couldnt stop.
already begin. then any other already done.
and i just could write it down, spread it all arround.


currently listening to-coldplay

why do they stay?

begitu banyak mengapa di kepala saya hari ini.

Seorang teman saya adalah perempuan cantik dan populer. lalu pacarnya. teman sekelas nya yg entah siapa namanya, dengan tampang yang biasa saja. dan pemarah.
tapi kenapa teman saya bisa saja menangis tiba2 ketika ia bertengkar, padahal ia bisa mendapatkan laki2 yg lbh baik dr pcrnya.
lalu kenapa dy bertahan?

Ibu saya adalah perempuan hebat yang memiliki 3 anak, 2 anaknya sudah membahagiakan dia.
lalu kenapa dia bertahan dengan saya yang hanya bisa membuat nya marah dan pusing?

ibu saya adalah orang yg hebat, ia bisa bertahan menghadapi kehidupan rumah tangganya.
tapi apa sebabnya ia bisa bertahan 30 tahun dengan bapak saya?

Lalu kenapa eva brown bisa bertahan dengan hitler yang kejam?
lalu kenapa?
lalu kenapa mereka bertahan?

and why do i can stay for something that never be true?

i really love your voice on the phone

saturday afternon, u call me up.
i really like how u introduce ur self.
i really like how u ask me a question.
i really like those 27 minutes.
and i like ur next phone call.
i really like you. mr.slump

many ways of nowhere

so this is what im looking for so long. at once, i realized being somekind of what i want isnt that good.
somebody has kicked me out, than remind me that the time will prove what God consider it good.
then what had happened was just what i beg to god for something, and know god has answer.
i stare straight to somebody i never known but he puts me a big hope to be true. and somebody behind me scream for me to looking back. then back. and so many ways take me to one dream. but the answer still nowhere. im going nowhere.
many ways expect me to walk. but no way have an answer i really need.
im just going nowhere