*why the thing called love*
jika suatu hari kita hanya berdua saja.
maka tak akan ada jutaan kata yang bisa kita ungkapkan kecuali tanda tanda bibir gemetar tak mampu bahkan hanya untuk 3kata.
jika kita ada di keramaian. kita hanya terjaga berdua saja.
ingin nya kita ucapkan sedikit makna.
kita cuma butuh sedikit saja waktu dan ruang agar bisa hidupkan cita cita.
berikan cita cita hidup. maka hidup nya cuma agar kita bisa berpegangan erat. bertatapan sedikit. agar apa yang mereka bilang memiliki.
saya cuma berpikir, jika kita hidup untuk membuat korelasi antara manusia lewat perasaan. maka yang pertama kali dilakukan cuma merasakan apa yang saya bisa sedikit ungkap diatas. :D
Friday, June 27, 2008
what was going on?
i dont know what was going on my life?
it might be the revolution of something i've done.
i knew that screaming doesnt enough for curing this horrible emotion i ever find.
i see the ground going to say something when the air trying to wishper then the sky would like to screaming.
I never knew how they would do even they havent any voice to prove.
the light doesnt understood that i'm in trouble.
i try to find the place for asking help. but i never find it anyway.
all i've got is not enough even if its the whole world i've got.
i never find how i place the blame on.
imperfection, lack of understanding, and so many simple things become hard to fix.
i'm just a little yolk that messing up my mom's dress. than i try to messing up something bigger.
i dont know what was going on. even i dont know who's the one for asking help?
i'm in trouble
it might be the revolution of something i've done.
i knew that screaming doesnt enough for curing this horrible emotion i ever find.
i see the ground going to say something when the air trying to wishper then the sky would like to screaming.
I never knew how they would do even they havent any voice to prove.
the light doesnt understood that i'm in trouble.
i try to find the place for asking help. but i never find it anyway.
all i've got is not enough even if its the whole world i've got.
i never find how i place the blame on.
imperfection, lack of understanding, and so many simple things become hard to fix.
i'm just a little yolk that messing up my mom's dress. than i try to messing up something bigger.
i dont know what was going on. even i dont know who's the one for asking help?
i'm in trouble
Sunday, June 22, 2008
please stop asking why
after the tear runs dry. after the time goesby.
i actually wear smileys upon my face. it might be a shortcut just for two of us getting on each way without say any single word through the bye bye. I've been free the pain faster and viewer to be return.
i absolutely fine stand up with my own stregth on the highway.
then ...
its june, the problem must be slept away yesterday. but the question had no end yet.
it was why would be happened? why and why so why?
its hanging on my phone. its standing close my door. it was the public prologue that i never answered.
i really dont know hows they talking about us. But the prologue need to be answered. than i really dont know what would i show off. i really really dont know.
its started to made me mad, make me sad, it'll never change be glad.
people put the question right on my face while u have been stand right beside the right girl. is it what they called the harsh truth?
and so many question now also growing up on my mind.
why? why me?
Is it? is it my mistake? is it my next grey day?
dont you? dont you did the sin? do i the victim? and why?
please take them on the right track.
i'm not the place to put the blame.
please keep my grey day.
i'm not the one who make the blame.
do something for this last duty.
I'm really done
i actually wear smileys upon my face. it might be a shortcut just for two of us getting on each way without say any single word through the bye bye. I've been free the pain faster and viewer to be return.
i absolutely fine stand up with my own stregth on the highway.
then ...
its june, the problem must be slept away yesterday. but the question had no end yet.
it was why would be happened? why and why so why?
its hanging on my phone. its standing close my door. it was the public prologue that i never answered.
i really dont know hows they talking about us. But the prologue need to be answered. than i really dont know what would i show off. i really really dont know.
its started to made me mad, make me sad, it'll never change be glad.
people put the question right on my face while u have been stand right beside the right girl. is it what they called the harsh truth?
and so many question now also growing up on my mind.
why? why me?
Is it? is it my mistake? is it my next grey day?
dont you? dont you did the sin? do i the victim? and why?
please take them on the right track.
i'm not the place to put the blame.
please keep my grey day.
i'm not the one who make the blame.
do something for this last duty.
I'm really done
Saturday, June 21, 2008
call it 'gossip underground' !
pagi yang biasa. dihari yang biasa. tapi mungkin hari hari seperti ini akan terdengar lebih extraordinary seandainya kalian tau tentang 'gogon ; gosip underground', stay closer then i will mention it sooner.
well. mungkin hal biasa diantara kita semua ketika orang2 yg merasa match each other bersatu lalu berkumpul. and so does with gogon. Saya ga tau jelas sebenarnya siapa saja anak2 ini. tapi ada beberapa pemain tetap yang selalu ngumpul bareng setiap kali ada kesempatan. seperti pada suatu pagi ketika ulangan numpuk, tugas menjejal, lalu tekanan masa ujian ahir semester semakin dekat. lalu kita duduk bareng. ngobrol hal hal aneh. mulai dari ukuran betis cewe cewe, keritingan rambut orang yang lagi in, cara memakai roll yang benar atau bahkan gosip yang beredar di guru guru. untuk gosip yg beredar di kalangan murid sudah jelas kita pasti tau. lalu mulai mendekat. dan kita merasa refresh. saat ahirnya sebagian sudah masuk kelas masing2 lalu gogon sesi 1 berakhir.
bel istirahat berdering, ada saatnya kita ngumpul juga. makan bareng, ngutang satu sama lain, atau bikin chalenge makanan2 gila sambil share masalah berat seperti urusan pacaran yang mau ga mau jadi list teratas topik obrolan kami. mungkin tak lama setelah itu ada pelajaran yang diambil. at least kita mengenal pasangan masing2 [untuk yg punya pcr! haha]
lalu akhirnya langit mulai menguning. tas mulai terlempar akhirnya. Dan gosip underground mulai panas. apalagi ketika personil jackpot datang atau bawa teman2 nya. personil jackpot, sebut saja dia si raja gogon. haha. gogon makin parah. obrolan juga makin gila, tak hanya masalah sekolah. tapi skandal skandal masa kini, musik, atau kadang pemerintah, lingkungan. sebagai topik topik berat kita. matahari mulai turun. tapi takan pernah ada kata cukup untuk berkumpul, gosip, diskusi, belajar terkadang, yang penting ngumpul.
Yeah. just call it gossip undergound. news and trendsetting might be start here! =D
well. mungkin hal biasa diantara kita semua ketika orang2 yg merasa match each other bersatu lalu berkumpul. and so does with gogon. Saya ga tau jelas sebenarnya siapa saja anak2 ini. tapi ada beberapa pemain tetap yang selalu ngumpul bareng setiap kali ada kesempatan. seperti pada suatu pagi ketika ulangan numpuk, tugas menjejal, lalu tekanan masa ujian ahir semester semakin dekat. lalu kita duduk bareng. ngobrol hal hal aneh. mulai dari ukuran betis cewe cewe, keritingan rambut orang yang lagi in, cara memakai roll yang benar atau bahkan gosip yang beredar di guru guru. untuk gosip yg beredar di kalangan murid sudah jelas kita pasti tau. lalu mulai mendekat. dan kita merasa refresh. saat ahirnya sebagian sudah masuk kelas masing2 lalu gogon sesi 1 berakhir.
bel istirahat berdering, ada saatnya kita ngumpul juga. makan bareng, ngutang satu sama lain, atau bikin chalenge makanan2 gila sambil share masalah berat seperti urusan pacaran yang mau ga mau jadi list teratas topik obrolan kami. mungkin tak lama setelah itu ada pelajaran yang diambil. at least kita mengenal pasangan masing2 [untuk yg punya pcr! haha]
lalu akhirnya langit mulai menguning. tas mulai terlempar akhirnya. Dan gosip underground mulai panas. apalagi ketika personil jackpot datang atau bawa teman2 nya. personil jackpot, sebut saja dia si raja gogon. haha. gogon makin parah. obrolan juga makin gila, tak hanya masalah sekolah. tapi skandal skandal masa kini, musik, atau kadang pemerintah, lingkungan. sebagai topik topik berat kita. matahari mulai turun. tapi takan pernah ada kata cukup untuk berkumpul, gosip, diskusi, belajar terkadang, yang penting ngumpul.
Yeah. just call it gossip undergound. news and trendsetting might be start here! =D
Thursday, June 19, 2008
friday early morning
i dont know how many friday is it. how many friday i've waste my time with so many things come then run out on my head. this is early friday. i'm just laying my body on the bed while my brain working so hard. work for something that mean nothing. now. i'm enjoying the music, beat hard from the radio. it sounds like the singer is really fall in love with someone. and because of something, my brain suddenly pick me into a deep wondering in this early friday. i dont even know clearly what i've been wondered. I just remember that i'm waiting for somebody who i never guess before. and i never wondered before. deep wonder, hopping for somebody to bail me out from the boredom. while the boredom turn light into dark. turn white into black. then turn right to the left. finally turn my days into grey. i never guess boredom has a big strength to get my life into trouble. the trouble was visible but so hard to be seen. the trouble was untouchable but easily to touch. was abstract but too real to ignore. and then, my deep wonder continued. after a short pause while i'm realized that coldplay with yellow is on the air. and now i've been a little bit understood what i was wondered, when i try to sing a long with the radio 'look at the stars look how they shine for you and all the things you do. and there was all yellow' yeah. Finally i remind that i miss somebody to be loved and loving me. loving me for a little its okay now, for cure me from the boredom suffered. somebody who loving me, somebody who doesnt mind to call me 'sunshine' , sing the 'yellow' for me, say i love u everytime i wake, or just ask me 'how was your day, babe?' and that was the deep wondering result. now i realize what was the reason of the trouble. even i'm still sink in to the wonder for finding the solve key. yeah i'm still wondering.
IPA / IPS?
ini blog pertama saya. maaf saya emg rada gaptek soal kaya gini. maklumlah fitur akses internet d hp saya cuma saya pergunakan buat buka fs dan ym yg skarang lg ng trend berat. saya juga bru tadi siang bikin account di hp temen dkt saya. aceng. thx brother! ahaha. hari ini kamis, saya lupa tanggal brapa. yg jelas murid sma udah selesai ujian. yah langit sudah aga kekuningan. mungkin jam 2an. saya liat teman teman lagi sibuk melihat nilai nilai. hmh. yah biasa. penjurusan? and i wanna find another way to science. saya tau otak saya pas pasan untuk masuk ipa. tapi saya anak terakhir yg nyisa di rumah. mau apalagi? i think i have to make my mama put her big smile on her face while she sees my report. so .. now i try to find another way to science. ahirnya saya memutuskan untuk ikut masuk k dalam lab fisika setelah bikin account ini. yah didalam nya ada guru fisika. just call him mr.b, saya tau dia guru paling flexible yg saya kenal [flexible doesnt always mean positive, right?] saya masuk. aura lab fisika bikin saya pusing. Well, saya harus membiasakan diri sampai 2 taun k depan sama bau ini. i hope so. Kemarin saya uda bayar uang les sama s mr.b, dan skrg. dia masi saja minta saya beliin kue secara frontal biar saya masuk ipa! hell! But finally i find another way to science. yeah. yah akhirnya saya sepakat membawa kan dia brownies besok. huft. setelah ini saya pulang berdua saja sama sobat saya shela. ahir2 ini. kita mirip lesbian. kemana2 bareng. saya memang berteman dekat sama sekelompok anak d sklh. sampe2 ahir2 ini kita nempel bareng terus. sebut saja 'geng' nya bernama 'gogon' gosip underground. gaul kan? ahahaha. tapi sialnya diantara kami, tinggal saya sama shela yg blum punya pacar. haha. jadi mau ga mau kita kaya lesbi. ahaha. yah. Singkat kata saya sampe k rumah. saya lg mikir tentang pertemuan saya sama s mr.b. apa ini yang dinamakan penjurusan di sekolah saya? lomba bawa kue k sekolah? bukankah penjurusan cuma masalah pengelompokan minat dan potensi? bukan pengelompokan ras atau status sosial d sklh kan? tapi kenapa ipa lbh terlihat elegan drpd ips? pdhl saya yakin. otak nya dari anak ipa. ya anak ips juga kn? tapi kenapa sekolah saya bersikap feodal seolah masi ada anak emas antara ipa dan ips? dan kalo nanti saya masuk ipa. saya yakin saya cuma korban feodalisme orang tua yang masih take a big part dalam urusan masa depan anak2 nya. saya yakin banget. can somebody help us to fix the problem and make it on it's right way?
hukum feodal masih berlaku di sekolah saya. sial banget. Dan mungkin juga di otak orang tua saya. de, kalo kamu pinter pasti masuk ipa. kata mamah. apa ini yg disebut penjurusan minat dan bakat? bukankah seharusnya orang tua menerima potensi asli anaknya? Dan orang yg disebut pintar bukan hanya orang yg bisa comloud, atau orang yg bisa menghitung 9juta dikali 35.655 dalam 3 detik? bukankah orang pintar adalah orang yang bisa memanfaatkan nalarnya dengan sebaik baiknya? bukankah orang yang lulus dengan nilai 100 it terkadang tidak pintar bahkan terlihat goblok? iya kan?
hukum feodal masih berlaku di sekolah saya. sial banget. Dan mungkin juga di otak orang tua saya. de, kalo kamu pinter pasti masuk ipa. kata mamah. apa ini yg disebut penjurusan minat dan bakat? bukankah seharusnya orang tua menerima potensi asli anaknya? Dan orang yg disebut pintar bukan hanya orang yg bisa comloud, atau orang yg bisa menghitung 9juta dikali 35.655 dalam 3 detik? bukankah orang pintar adalah orang yang bisa memanfaatkan nalarnya dengan sebaik baiknya? bukankah orang yang lulus dengan nilai 100 it terkadang tidak pintar bahkan terlihat goblok? iya kan?
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