why does regret come at the end?

how can tears fall before the pain drops?
how can blood come out before the blade come to its place?
and how can it create the bitternes first before the sweet, and why does it turn up to me?
open the eye after the nightmare, there must be something you have done before you sleep.
open my heart after the burn, there must be some fire place i have lightened before i forced it to get off.
then i got the nightmare, i had the burn.
well maybe i'm just one of common people who fall on the same fool, who deal with a wrong feel and sometimes seek for a better 'trick'.
maybe its not a regret,
its so years ago to beg for sorry.
but its not only a phrase,
its important thing to get over.
this is maybe what they call the comeback after its fade.
i just now realized how i really supposed to say sorry before i left.
but you just then realized how you really supposed to give me apology before i beg.
we meet for mate, and we already did it again.
we are so much ordinary. and theres nothing extraordinary left unless i have just realized that i did a sin to you.
but we were so much ordinary, and theres nothing more unordinary than i'm a bit too late to say sorry.
i am kind of guilty babe and try to recognize what had happened.
and i found it through.
maybe thats why i got the tear drop because i have fell the pain to someone else.
and maybe so why.
but its all so up.
you already get your mind, and i already get my false. i just cant share it in a straight way.
there is nothing to return, this only a confession.
there is nothing to take back, it is only what i cant told you.
let the things fade , its when we were too young.
let it goes ordinary, its nothing left behind.
i only cant say it straight to regret